Sunday, July 22, 2012

Ok, lets try this again.

So I've been gone again for far too long again, but I'm going to give this a try again, and here's my goal, I'm going to write a new post every day for the next 30 days. And I'm going consider it my little island of self time.

So since I've been gone I've had a baby, cool right? And better yet, I've moved in with Mr. Tall Dark and Brooding and moved my collection of adorable minions with me, into this rather lovely little house in a decent neighborhood. Go me, I'm moving up in the world. Of course, it beats cutting limes in the bar, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss those days. Working in strip bar while pregnant though, I've gotta say was quite the experience in and of it's self. And now here I am on Maternity Leave until June, JUNE. I may actually go stark raving mad in the next 11 months before the government of Canada decides it will no longer pay me out for the privilege of raising my own young.

So I'd like to introduce you to my littlest minion, whom we will call the Baby Octopus, because I was convinced, CONVINCED I tell you that she must have a dozen limbs because she kicked so darn much in the womb, turns out she was just trying to bust her way out. And here she is with my eldest daughter The Bear, photobombing the picture.

So because this blog is kind of an abstract concept in my own mind I think I'm just going to lay it all out here. My life is unfocussed and much as I've tried to find one avenue of interest or focus or discussion I can't seem to do that with any degree of success. I am a mother, a woman, a sometimes this and that, and not being able to narrow that focus is a huge point of contention in my life. So instead of trying to pick a topic and stick to it I think I'm going to go with everything and see where that gets me. At least I will keep writing that way and not just get caught up on "but what do I write about there's so much, how much do I want to share, how naked do I want to be?" I talk a lot about emotional nudity in my other writing, my catch phrase being "here I am emotionally naked and vulnerable on the internet for all to see" and I worry about how that comes across to other people and what effect my nudity and vulnerability will have in my personal life, and yet that very vulnerability is what makes me who I am.

So here we go, an attempt to keep going to pick every direction and not narrow it down to one topic. 

And that will be me, stark raving naked on the internet again.